Saturday, April 22, 2006

been thinking a lot today...

driving out to thanksgiving point, i attained a bit of personal nirvana:

maybe i'm not doing so bad.
i'm working and getting calls for more work, and that feels good.

and maybe it's alright that i don't have everything in my life ordered how i want right now.
i could do better, and there are some things i need to take care of, but i think i'm doing alright.

i enjoyed the tulip festival.
and left with a lot to think about.

3 comments:

Alyssa Rock said...

Would you do it all again if you had the chance? Sometimes I ask myself that question. I wouldn't trade my experiences with TMA at BYU for anything... and I felt very strongly at the time that it was what I needed to do. But doubt always creeps in.

See Hebrews 10: 35-36.

P.S. You don't mind that I check out your blog, do you? I just like what you have to say...

-->jeff * said...

i would love to romantically say 'yes, i would do it again!' and throw my arms into the wind. rather, i ponderously say, 'yes, i would do it again.'
when i was going through the program, i knew it was the right thing for me to do, and as my time came to a close, i came to decide that there was another path for me to choose; i haven't found that yet, but that is where i have realized that i don't have to have all the answers yet.
being a film major was a wonderful experience, both in that shooting movies was a ton of fun, and, more importantly, because of the understanding that i developed in regards to life.
i do wish i had given a little more thought to a marketable minor, like business. photography doesn't offer much more in the professional sense, although japanese may prove to be useful.

i was a bit confused at your comments and had to reread my post. my time at the tulip festival was spent thinking of neither work nor dating.

i consider it quite an honor that people read my blog, and always appreciate your comments, even if i don't always respond to them.

on the other hand, your husband has not responded to my last two e-mails to him.
please kick him in the shins.

Alyssa Rock said...

Consider his shins kicked! Frankly, he's horrible at keeping in touch with people. His mom considers it a blessed event when he calls her because he does it so rarely.

Sorry if my comment confused you... It was more of a comment to your blogs in general. I just sense in you the same question that I keep asking myself... "Would I do it all again?" I don't know if I have the answer to that question. My major has so positively influenced the person that I am today, but it seems miles away from what I'm actually doing with my life---or at least what I thought I would be doing with my life. It's bizarre.