Sunday, July 31, 2011
and i've more or less done that for about four years now, despite being in three different wards. that's gotten me through all of the standard works and that's pretty dang.
as in most wards, there are two gospel doctrine teachers and we would alternate every other week. except that a month or two ago, the other teacher in our ward decided to run off and get married to a nice boy. fine by me, although i was a little surprised when the bishop passed me and said that they would probably wait to call a new teacher in the fall.
i love teaching; no problem there.
so, i've been teaching every single week for a couple of months now, i think. pretty grand and all, but i was getting to the point where i wanted just one week off, where i could just relax. now, i know that bishops and a lot of other callings work a lot harder than one hour a week on sunday and have a lot more to do, so i really can't complain. even so, last week i approached the sunday school president and he offered to teach this week.
like a mother, i didn't want to be done with my responsibilities entirely, but today's simple break was greatly appreciated.
Friday, July 29, 2011
|you can fight all you want.|
you're not going to see this screen.
as a kid (and, as of now), dragon warrior 3 was one of my favorite nintendo games. i've even written about it on here once or twice.
once when i was working my way through the game in order to save the world from evil, i was fighting one of the major bosses, baramos. i had my warriors equipped with powerful swords and strong armor, my wizards knew excellent spells, and they were all at high hit points. i was ready for the fight.
and i fought.
and baramos would not die.
the game came with a little chart of all of the enemies and their respective hit points. i kept an approximate mental tally of how much damage i had done and yes, this guy should have been defeated three times over by the time my magic points ran out and i was no longer able to heal my team. i watched them die against a mistakenly unconquerable challenge.
it was a little more annoying, too, when my brother beat baramos on his game without any real difficulty. interestingly, though, he said he'd had the same thing happen to him once, too, although with a different boss.
i don't remember if i was able to defeat baramos on my next attempt or if i had to start over with a whole new game.
at any rate, yeah.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
but i just had no desire to go shopping. blah. yet basic logic reminded me that i would have to confront this dilemma at some point. what got me over it was someone pointing out that i needed a change in my general diet. that, even though i was eating a balanced amount of foods, my body needed a different balance. that sounded really appealing, actually. i had trimmed down my time at the store by having a pretty definite path through the aisles, knowing precisely what i needed and getting the same thing every time.
suddenly, i was excited to go to the store now, even though i didn't have much time before i had to be back at school.
i spent more time in the fresh fruit section, looking at things other than bananas and got me some peaches (not as good as the ones my family used to buy from colorado, but NOTHING could be as good as those...) i walked the aisles slowly, looking at the things i usually zoomed past, trying to think of what i could do with all of this foodstuff that i was seeing again for the first time.
i bought ham and sharp cheddar instead of my usual swiss and turkey pastrami (someday i'll be able to afford real pastrami), yogurt instead of cottage cheese, packaged seasoned tuna instead of the canned kind, bagels to make bagel sandwiches, a box of instant rice, a bag of frozen vegetables that was only printed in spanish, and a bottle of some chinese sauce, figuring that i'd find something to do with it.
the fresh meats section is one i usually don't have much contact with, since i don't have any specific recipes for such, they need to be used up within a few days, and my mind fallaciously connotes any dishes that would use fresh pork or chicken as taking longer than i have time for. but, being bold, i bought a package of italian sausages.
being over-zealous as i cooked yesterday, i threw pretty much all of my new ingredients into the same frying pan yesterday. it tasted alright (and certainly different!), but maybe half as many flavors would have worked better.
so yeah, i'm kind of excited about this now.
Monday, July 25, 2011
|anyone remember when|
this was my blogger
Sunday, July 24, 2011
|i will never forget...|
the next thing i remember in the dream was being at church this morning. never mind that i was still unshowered and scheduled to speak in sacrament meeting which was starting in five minutes, although that was bothering me, too. far more traumatic, however, was that i had no memory of the previous night's concert. i ran over to brandon (who was enigmatically both at my church and at the concert) and asked him what the show was like.
"i just remember being really happy," he said.
of course he was happy: he had been at a tally hall show, for crying out loud. but i was crestfallen. i remembered being there, waiting for the show to start, feeling the excitement in the air. but that was where my memory stopped. i had no recollection of them playing "good day" or "welcome to tally hall", no memory of me getting up on stage (i'll explain more about that later this week), nothing. what was the point of being there if i afterwards had no memory to cherish of it?? it was like i had missed the whole thing.
this wasn't a dream, it was a nightmare.
and so came the relief this morning, when i groggily drifted back into consciousness and felt the realization that the concert is on wednesday and that i hadn't missed anything.
blessed sabbath morning.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
|all i know about this movie is that |
this guy's dog ate dark chocolate
one girl's contains more of a paragraph, starting off by saying that "poets describe love as something that you can't control. that's how it was for me," she says, and continues by talking about how they were two opposites but they were in love and the like. i really don't remember it, since i'm usually glancing at it as i'm late to class in the morning. (note: upon actually slowing to look a little closer whilst passing by today, i saw that it was from the notebook.)
anyone who knows me knows that i'm a hopeless romantic at heart. heck, i think was writing about that ooey gooey wonderful feeling just a month or so ago. and yes, you really do just kind of fall in love and i seriously dig that twitterpated feeling and intended to work to refresh it throughout my future marriage.
but i really don't like the idea that love is "something you can't control." yes, it's a wonderful and exhilarating fall, but follow that notion to it's logical end: if you can't control your falling into love, you likely can't control your fall out of love.
and that sort of recklessness isn't love. that's infatuation. for your seeds of love to actually blossom into serious dang awesomeness, at some point you need to take control and decide it's going to go on. without any guidance or care, said feeling of "love" will topple over and lie on the ground like a tomato plant without one of those metal cage things around it. eventually, love becomes a decision. the fire will come back, but in the down times, you need to work to keep it going. and that doesn't deromanticize it in the slightest. a prize earned through determination and hard work is much more rewarding and admirable than something that just kinda happened without any real effort on your part.
...says the unmarried guy.
in complete unrelatedness, cake's "pretty pink ribbon" is my current buzz song. i really haven't even paid much attention to what the song is about (despite pretty much being able to sing along with it), but i love the music.
Friday, July 22, 2011
|even in this picture, i'm|
probably twice as old
as i'm acting these days
as i'm running short on groceries and equally short on interest in going grocery shopping, i didn't much to pack this morning and so grabbed the smaller wall-e lunchbox instead of my usual nightmare before Christmas (which can easily hold two sandwiches, a banana, a bag of cherries, some potato chips, and three e.l.fudge cookies).
looking at my lunch today, i noticed that it consisted of two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, potato chips, and cookies, all packed inside of a wall-e lunchbox with a can of yoo-hoo chocolate drink.
i am a seven-year old.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
there was even a time during my study abroad in kyoto that i sang it to myself late one night when i just needed some comfort. the next morning my host family said they heard me but that i sounded good.
but this version here is probably my all-time favorite.
this is why you always stay for the closing credits of a movie. : )
the first time i saw it, jack and i just sat the in the theater in peace and quietly soaked it in.
(new york doll is a movie worthy of your time anyway)
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
one week, folks.
[pretend there's really stellar video here of them singing either "spring and a storm" (wouldn't load because it's over the 100 mb video limit on blogger) or the latter half of "good day" (wouldn't load because blogger's video function seems to be jacked entirely right now). there's not even a picture of them up here because the picture uploading function is even less function than the video thing]
in a week, i won't need to try to post anything; the euphoria will be shining through my heart and illuminating across the interwebs.
sing songs you like to hear
and the world'll disappear
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
“then the pressures begin to build. sometimes these are social pressures. sometimes they are personal appetites. sometimes they are false ambitions. there is a weakening of the will. there is a softening of discipline. there is capitulation. and then there is remorse, followed by self-accusation and bitter tears of regret. …
“… if there be those throughout the church who by word or act have denied the faith, i pray that you may draw comfort and resolution from the example of peter, who, though he had walked daily with Jesus, in an hour of extremity momentarily denied the Lord and also the testimony which he carried in his own heart. but he rose above this and became a mighty defender and a powerful advocate. so, too, there is a way for any person to turn about and add his or her strength and faith to the strength and faith of others in building the kingdom of God”
(see the whole talk here)
elder holland has noted the don't know all that was going on here, but i love the principle that is being taught here and this is one reason i've always liked peter. there have been times when i've also not been a bold, valiant, or as faithful as i should have been, even though i've wanted to. but that doesn't mean that it's over. we can stand up again, stand tall again, and rise back to where we should be. we can turn around and leave those bitter tears behind us.
in talking about another part of the lesson, a girl shared a lesson that she had learned that i liked. she said that if she wants to do something, she will work towards it. if things still don't work out the way she wants them to, after doing all that she can, then she knows that it wasn't Heavenly Father's will for her, and that He has something better on her path.
i liked that.
so, just some lessons from church today as i'm enjoying my new mormon tabernacle choir cd. : )
Friday, July 15, 2011
i'm spending my evening at home, chiseling away at season 3 of the x-files, counting money from the viz drink fridge, wearing thai fisherman pants and a "i heart ny" t-shirt, eating leftover chicken fingers and a bowl of lettuce, listening to cake and mindlessly perusing the internet.
and deliriously enjoying every peaceful minute of it.
maybe i'll watch a silent movie.
if i feel like it.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
my thoughts on the casting on a scale of 1-10.
- harry: i think the illustrations of him on the book covers, especially 4-7, are the best at capturing what i see him as. but in finding a real life boy, they did a pretty dang good job. 9
- ron: under direction by chris columbus (movies 1-2): 3
- under anyone else (movies 3-7.2): 8
- hermione: yeah, pretty darn great. 9
- dumbledore: played by richard harris (movies 1-2): nearly perfect: 9.5
- played by michael gambon (since harris died): meh. his emotions are too wild: 4.5
- hagrid: no complaints here: 8
- professor mcgonagall: never really had a strong image of her in the books, so this works: 7
- snape: i don't think i saw snape quite this way on my own, but i really dig alan rickman's character: 8.5
- voldemort: let's not talk about the voldemort on the back of quirrell's head and just focus on "goblet of fire" and after. mostly nailed it, i think: 8.5
- wormtail: no strong connections to the character, so mr. spall is doing fine by me. 7
- ginny: feisty yet graceful. as good as can be expected. 9
- fred and george: some of their "we say the same things at the same time" gets a little old, but i generally like them, especially as they've gotten older. 8
- bill and fleur: bill isn't as tough and cool as i imagined him (he looks more like a minstrel...) and i still think fleur should have been played by natalie westanofolonowaky shirts. 6.5
- molly and arthur: mmm, they're fine. i guess molly's pretty close to how i imagined her, but she's just not as endearing as in the books for some reason. a casualty of literary adaptation, i suppose: 7
- draco malfoy: the look is pretty good, but his sneering comes across a little too much usually. still, that's kind of how he's written in the books, so what can you expect? 6.5
- neville: quite like him. awkward and clumsy, he's almost unappealing yet there's that knowledge that he's going to become really awesome. very excited to see him in tonight's movie: 7.5
- sirius black: not quite what i imagined, although i can't think of a better actor at the moment. he's more fun and cooler in the books, i think. 7-ish.
- remus lupin: perfect. absolutely how i always saw him. 9
- tonks: yep, dig. as well-cast as her husband. 9
- mad-eye moody: kind of there, but something wasn't quite right. i think i wanted him older, more crotchety, and a little crazier yet also wiser. 6.5
- luna: pretty much love her. great work. 9
- xenophilius: should have been played by jim broadbent, who was miscast as slughorn: 4
- slughorn: love the character in the book, was excited to see broadbent cast a him. yet he totally didn't work. still can't think of who should have been: maybe the walrus from disney's "alice in wonderland." 3
- cedric diggory: despite joel's hypothesis on kimmy's reaction at the movie premiere, i actually liked his performance. slap some pigment in that guy and he ain't too bad. 7
- the dursleys: they're caricatures in the books, and that's about what they are in the movies, too. 6
- lockheart: yes, maybe he should have been a little younger, but i generally liked him. 7.5
Friday, July 01, 2011
i was reminded it of this afternoon when emily texted me to say how much she liked today's quote.
and as i sat down tonight, i read it again and decided it was sheep worthy.
harry: ...i just feel so angry all the time. and what if, after everything that i've been through, something's gone wrong inside me? what if i'm becoming bad?
sirius: i want you to listen to me very carefully, harry. you're not a bad person. you're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. you understand? besides, the world isn't split into good people and death eaters. we've all got both light and dark inside of us. what matters is the part we choose to act on. that's who we really are.