Sunday, February 06, 2011
on being quick to observe
for those of you who aren't familiar with them, i associate their/his music with harsh industrial sounds, dark heavy beats, and intense and often harsh and angry lyrics. it's possible that tim would argue against that, but that's the connotation i have of them. and i think it's safe to suggest that that is the general conception that comes when you say you're listening to nine inch nails.
the thing is, that wasn't at all what i was listening to. i wouldn't buy any of those albums. what i was listening to was ghosts I-IV, an album of instrumental and ambient music that would probably be passable as good sunday music.
but that had me thinking: are there other things in my life that would give a false representation of who i am if known only in part? yeah, a lot, actually. showing random interests on my profile, facebook noted that i like "a clockwork orange" and showed a picture of the movie poster. the fact is that i enjoy the book and have no desire or interest in anyway of watching the movie. i love the beastie boys; anyone who's been around me in the past year has picked up on that. but i don't like vulgarities and so i got into them when i realized that amazon also sold their cds in "clean" versions. and, perhaps most notably, a glance at my movie collection will reveal a wide variety of movies, including some rough ones like watchmen, the wrestler, or babel. but i have those either in edited dvds or i watch them through my clearplay. i don't watch R-rated movies and i'm somewhat selective about which pg-13 movies i'll go to as well.
it also got me thinking: are there other things about me and who i am that people falsely think or presume because of making their decision based on incomplete data? probably. and that's unfortunate, but i can only do what i can to present myself as honestly as i am. oddly, i suppose that sometimes honesty can be misinterpreted if people don't think you're being honest, but that's more philosophical than i feel like getting right now.
one of the themes of solaris (either version) is that the people we know are really only what we know about them. if i am greater or less than what someone knows about me, that is beside the point; "me" to them is solely the compilation of whatever they've gathered about me. hopefully it's at least partially right.
this could become a post about being careful how we present ourselves, but my thinking caused me to look at it in the other direction: how am i judging the people i meet?
and just as i would want someone to get to know me a little more than just what's on my ipod or my dvd shelves, it's caused to think a bit more as i'm getting to know people around here.
i think this post came out a little "heavier" than i had intended, but what the heck.